MWSA Review

The Hardest Year: A Love Story in Letters During the Vietnam War by Carole and William Wagener is a rare and intriguing treat in which the reader viscerally feels the desperation, anguish, pain, separation, confusion, and awfulness experienced by a young newlywed couple separated one day after their wedding by his deployment to the Vietnam War.

Carole has crafted a unique work based largely on 300 handwritten letters she and her soldier husband Bill exchanged, beginning before he left for basic training through when he returned home a changed young man of 23. She adds additional narratives throughout the book, weaving in her recollections of how she felt after receiving a particularly disturbing/annoying/terrifying account from Vietnam, wrestling at the same time with her own fears, longings, and frustrations as a young woman/student/wife pursuing her undergraduate degree during a time of campus protests.

This book was as revealing as it gets for a couple. Carole and Bill held nothing back in their letters. What a ride, what raw emotions, what daily stress they shared with each other, so many insecurities of youth, of young love, of a marriage she questioned from the beginning for a variety of reasons. I couldn't put it down and found myself grateful for the honesty these two young people shared.

Their two distinct voices, their words written decades ago, put the reader in a variety of settings: on campus witnessing student protests and racial unrest, in Vietnam both in the relative safety of an HQ office, and then on a convoy being ambushed in a life-threatening combat situation. The intense change in settings from the University of Wisconsin campus to various sites in Vietnam as well as the events they each lived and chose to share with each other offer a delightful, and sometimes uncomfortable experience for the reader. Each letter's date and place of origin is clearly indicated. The vocabulary used in their letters was raw and authentic—the feelings and longings of young lovers separated by great distance and terrible circumstances.

Chapter 18, written by Bill, in which he reflects on death-defying events that he never wrote to Carole about, really grabbed me.

The book is constructed with black and white photos included to further draw the reader into this tumultuous year in their lives. Endnotes add info on sourcing, news media accounts, colloquial speech, etc. The glossary includes translations of words used from a variety of languages.

Anyone who wants to feel the human side of how that war disrupted young lives of Americans, who would appreciate a thoroughly intimate and vulnerable account with words that survived the decades, words that reveal how at times these two Americans were just barely holding on as the war raged, and how their love for each other kept them going, will enjoy this book immensely. I highly recommend this book for adults only, due to its mature content.

Review by Grace Tiscareno-Sato (June 2023)

 

Author's Synopsis

During 1968-1969, nineteen-year-old college student Carole, thinking she's pregnant marries her enlisted soldier, Bill, one day before he departs for the Vietnam War. Carole then transfers to the tumultuous UW-Madison campus amidst the riots and antiwar protests. This memoir is based on over 300 authentic letters written by the couple skillfully woven together with short stories, poems, and 31 photographs written from the female point of view of "the girl left behind." The couple's dialogue through distance is a love story, a war story, and a coming of age story as they navigate an ocean apart to keep their long-distance relationship alive. During Bill's R&R, they meet in Hawaii, but have difficulty saying goodbye again. Nine months later, Bill returns home all in one piece, but soon experiences his first traumatic nightmare where he believes he's back in Vietnam, requiring a visit to the hospital. It takes thirty years for Carole to discover Bill has Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and seeks counseling for him from the local Veterans Administration . After seven years of therapy, Bill is awarded a 50 % service-connected disability and starts doing a local talk-TV show. The book ends with an Epilogue in 2007 with the couple questioning the morality of war while attending an Iraq antiwar rally with their fifteen year old twins. On a beach in Santa Barbara, California, 3,000 white wooden crosses symbolize the lives lost in yet another war. Carole wonders "Will war never cease?" Then she remembers their letters tucked away in a shoebox in the garage where they remain collecting dust until "the time is right to tell our story, this story, of The Hardest Year" which may help other veterans and their families who still struggle with the aftermath of war. There is a line drawn map of Vietnam, a glossary of terms, and extensive end notes of significant historical information.

Format(s) for review: Paper and Kindle

Review Genre: Nonfiction—Memoir/Biography

Number of Pages: 274

Word Count: 77000